Friday, August 28, 2009

Emotions




I have mentioned a couple post ago that we have a friend that is very ill. It has once again made me take inventory on my life. My last few posts seem to be direct and somewhat on the serious side.... These facts in life are some of our biggest mountains to climb and must be faced. I have not dwelled on this since my heart attack since the first of the year but it has entered my mind and in my emotions more than normal. When someone close to you is facing dying it is hard to make yourself let go of the future. Instead of denying... you open your heart and mind to the possibility of a rich way of living... my thought is why do we wait till we are almost forced into something to be able to see it, and live life everyday like it is our last. When faced with these questions new thoughts, feelings and actions will emerge.The unknown invites you to question and search for meaning in your life....in the past and the present. Responses when faced with illness can be many feelings, anger, loss, grief, denial, and of course hope, and can be in any combination. Now personally I realize how we all react differently... I am not in shock, as our friend has been fighting for some years... I haven't cried... but have teared up... I am not refusing... I am wondering how to respond however. I do so want to be able to provide spiritual and emotional comfort, and do not want to abandon in any way cause it is easier than facing what is taking place. All these emotions re-enforces my thoughts that we need to find a true meaning in our lies... We have to also keep in mind we cannot control allot of things that will happen.but when we can we need to step-up and do so... Keeping ourselves in a peaceful state instead of letting anxiety take over our power is so very important. Surrounding our self with water, earth, sunset, a walk, and yes a prayer can be our best friend during these times and it should be on a daily basis. We can allow our self to relax and feel peace. I believe I have written this post to mainly help myself deal and understand... and it does consciously help me let go of emotions building inside.. Often for me , sitting in quiet and writing seems to be a release... I personally do know nothing is gained by the time we spend worrying, certainly not sleep... I am very sure many of you have the same feelings....This all is a final lesson we learn through life.....

4 comments:

sjhackney said...

You are in my prayers. Take care. Sally

Myrna said...

Thanks for sharing...I am praying for you and your friend..
Hugs,
Myrna

Leigh Ann said...

Praying for your friend and you Marrietta. I try to dwell on the happy moments that I have spent with that person when going through something like this. My sister-in-law passed away when she was 34 and she had 5 children under the age of 7. Often I would go to help with the kids in her final year and SHE would minister to me. She was an amazing person with a wonderful faith. She would tell me that she had the easy part and she felt sorry for those she left behind, family and close friends would have to face the loss and learn to live without her. She knew she was going to a better place, with a body that would be whole and strong, and most importantly she would be with her heavenly Father. Two short years later I was faced with the death of my son. Jan's faith was such a testimony to me at that time and helped give me a sense of peace during the most difficult time of my life. Praying for you to have God's grace, mercy and peace as you walk through the valley with your dear friend. Thank you for sharing your heart with me today.
Love~
Leigh Ann

SharDon Exclusives said...

I went through something similar with my Mother. I, sometimes, just could not even think of my life without her. I would pray and pray & I knew in my heart that it was "her time" but I just could not deal with my own hurt. Then a couple of days before she left I had such a solid realization that...HEAVEN waited for her. I still miss her, it still hurts but she is AT HOME at last...You are both in my prayers....sharon