Searching For Understanding

Although I do not wish to post negative on my blog and be swallowed up with sadness and create it for others as I continue to search for understanding as the joy of the birth at Christmas has been deeply saddened with the loss of beautiful small children and dedicated people... Surely darkens the holiday season as we must continue our journey and experience a peace and happiness with our loved ones, while in our hearts we well know there will be many families that will not feel any of this peace... I know not if one will ever heal from this happening.. Seems it takes a tragic event to make us really look at another with a sincere heart.. Last night Tom and I took one of the grandsons and his friend to the Tinora guys basketball game and I watched their every move although they were plenty old enough to care for themselves, I just felt the strong need to protect... Many little beautiful children were running up and down the stands and you wanted them to be safe... and feel loved.. We must however climb above this event that has happened in Connecticut and live a "quality" life of respect and kindness.
    I sincerely have been enjoying the weeks of making ready for the holiday... Have not allowed myself to get stressed over decorating or over spending on gifts... Love the sparkle of Christmas ... This coming Saturday is the Moser Christmas gathering of about 70.. I have a few things to accomplish yet but all is under control... 
     It seems my battle with cancer this summer and fall has made me realize even more there are just many things we cannot control... Actually has brought a larger amount of calmness to my thoughts and reactions to events. and made me more aware to the simple but thoroughly wonderful offerings if we take advantage of them.. Tomorrow for lunch I have been invited to a friends , Kay's, home for a Christmas lunch and gathering with other ladies... I always enjoy the company and lovely decorating...
    Today I just wanted to share some words and thoughts as many times just writing ones feelings down is a release for me.... I am off to enjoy my simple day and check on pecan pie in oven and prepare T-bone steak... baked potato... salad.. peas.. and of course the pie for supper enjoyment... followed up with a 2012 Christmas movie on the Hallmark channel at 8... surrounded with the warmth of my surroundings of holiday decorations and twinkling lights...Yes... I am very blessed and extremely Thankful.....