Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Things Change

As the years pass I have found many things are changing... I am the most relaxed at home as I have stated numerous times... I know others may experience this also. I seem to become somewhat dis-functional when I am in the company of large crowds and loud noises. For the last couple weeks I have been thrown into these arrangements and find myself a peaceful shelter of sorts... So many people talking or yelling all at the same time, music loud , along with all, and my mind just looses it focus... When talking to others , you just shake your head and agree, because you don't have a clue what they are saying.... Oh dear, it does become a confused state for me.... I have worsened dealing with this since my heart attack and I usually just and up going to the car... and find myself longing for home... I often wonder if some don't think of me as becoming stuffy but they don't know what I am experiencing... When I am in the company of two or three people I do much better and can be quite chatty.....I have also stated in the past I find I can write much better than I can talk... I am sure this crowd thing has much to do with it...I have always loved writing things down and letting out my inner most thoughts since I was a teen... For me writing it down is releasing it and I think this is good... Maybe also becomes a way of sharing... Many time I think we react to our childhood and with age these things become more prominent.... We all were raised in different ways and family beliefs and we portray them more with age... Someone I may consider a bit strange may not be strange in their world at all... Through understanding of what is going on inside the person... Caring and understanding become very important words in everyday life... Family, friends, and people we come across in everyday life. As I recall back many years ago I lived for the record hops and being surrounded by crowds... Yes, things are changing.....

8 comments:

Jann said...

Hello Marietta--I am so glad I found your lovely blog! I so agree with you--I find as I get older that I'm much less tolerant of crowds and noise, and even my grandchildren get to be too much after a couple of hours--strange, as I raised 5 children myself and it didn't bother me much then! I am a homebody and love being here where it's quiet and I can do what I want. Anyway, I love your blog background; it's just so beautiful--I will be back for a visit soon! Smiles, Jann

Shopgirl said...

Marietta, I read a couple of your posts and you hit the nail on the head for me also. I find myself retreating from different things at different times. I have a group of friends that I love, but often find it more than I want to deal with. Fridays are lunch day and I am failing to go often. I was always a social butterfly, but I am comfortable within my own home. I do have depression problems, so I do blame this condition often. Am I just getting more comfortable in my own skin and not wanting to deal?? Your, Mary

The Victorian Parlor said...

Marietta,

Your writing is always so inspirational and uplifting-I'm glad that you take the time to share it with us all! I know many people who are uncomfortable in crowds and loud noise-you are definately not alone.

Blessings,

Kim

A Bite of Country Cupcakes said...

I totally "get " what you are saying.
Having three little kids often puts me in positions that I am ill at ease.
My Hubby has never liked noise or mayhem.
It is lovely to come home and close the gate and recoup.

Queen Bee's Musings said...

Well said, I find myself becoming this way as well. Thanks so much for sharing.. :}

The Tin Rabbit said...

I am a home person too~ even being in a crowded store bothers me...love being in the quiet! Hope you are doing well? Have a wonderful Wednesday! Ann

sweetlaraine said...

Hi Marietta......thanks so much for putting into words what I have been feeling as so late. I don't know how I had the stregnth to raise three children, work a job, clean the house, cook etc. etc.....when I now go to bed when the sun goes down. I now like being in my own home...alone with my own thoughts.
Laraine

Dealbaida said...

Hello Marietta,

I am so grateful I found your wonderful pages, they are so inspirational, and your words could well be my own. Thank you for expressing my thoughts on crowds, noise and the very "busy-ness" of life so eloquently. I wonder if my growing intolerance is down to my heart attack (7 years ago) or just advancing years!

Thank you for it all.

Marion,
UK